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November 06 For Family and Friends Obit LinkHere is the link to Marks Obit. In our local paper.
I want to say Thank you to Chris Gailey.. for helping me edit ....
October 26 CraZZYYYY sock day!!New pictures for Crazy Sock day.... Shania's socks were the crazyest, Mrs Grillo will be making a request for the principla to come to her room to check out Shania's socks. Mom and Shania making Birthday cookies and Shania's Award.
Lots of pics this week. Lots of activites at school. As a matter of a fact. I'm riding the School bus tomorrow..... "Hope it's not the Short bus" .... We are gping to Winter Farms. for Hay rides and pumpkins...
September 29 Who has the Delorean? Yep a DBL meaningI want to go back to this day........
June 25
The River Dance
and for the few in the know, Mark. Where would I fit a carseat? September 23 The beginning to our end......Mark, has offically quit chemo. Tomorrow, Hospice nurses and a hospital bed will be in our home. We had our interview today.
I used to sing and think about Mark.....when I heard this on my 2 hour commute to wrok....
It�s amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark Try as I may I could never explain What I hear when you don�t say a thing The smile on your face lets me know that you need me There�s a truth in your eyes sayin� you�ll never leave me The touch of your hand says you�ll catch me if ever I fall You say it best when you say nothing at all Alison Krauss
All day long I can hear people talking out loud But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd Old mr. webster could never define What�s being said between your heart and mine The smile on your face lets me know that you need me There�s a truth in your eyes sayin� you�ll never leave me The touch of your hand says you�ll catch me if ever I fall You say it best when you say nothing at all The smile on your face lets me know that you need me There�s a truth in your eyes sayin� you�ll never leave me The touch of your hand says you�ll catch me if ever I fall You say it best when you say nothing at all September 12 For 53 years of friendship.... Deanie and Syd
To Syd: RIP
You sheltered me from harm
Kept me warm, kept me warm You gave my life to me Set me free, set me free The finest years I ever knew Were all the years I had with you And I would give anything I own Give up my life, my heart, my home I would give everything I own Just to have you back again You taught me how to love What it's of, what it's of You never said too much But still you showed the way And I knew from watching you Nobody else could ever know The part of me that can't let go And I would give anything I own Is there someone you know You're loving them so But taking them all for granted? You may lose them one day Someone takes them away And they don't hear The words you long to say I would give anything I own Just to touch you once again Written By: David Gates, 1972 September 11 Birthday letter to LaceyBabylove,
Twenty-three years old! How time flies. I remember when you were a few weeks old and I took your temp.... Yeah... Kitchen needed a cleaning. My heart could not have been fuller, to look down into your face as you looked into mine. That look, the stare, the bond... No words can explaine those moments.... Perhaps true love.... Then you hit 2.... You were a very lovable little girl, you wanted to share or give away your last M&M out of the package. You also had a stubborn side..... Knocking the plant over on purpose when you KNEW that was a nono.. Scratching-slapping my face as I told you "no you cant touch the historic pictures on the wall" ....... Oh GF. I was soo mad at you that day LOL. You were 7 months and got grounded to the stroller.... You have such a great personality & love of life. You are super funny (which I have to believe is inherited from me) ..........joke . see :p ? But I think what I love most about you is the way you make me feel. When you say . "Mom" ... I can feel it, (from the tone in your voice), rather then hear it (even when you type it)....... I love your heart..... and you have soo much of it! Happy Birthday BabyLove...... Now that the mushy shit is over... Can't wait to put you in my lap again and say "Be my baby" ... Do you remember that? Love Mom....... I hope you have a wonderful day today! August 25 The third night in a row......no now its the 4th draft....aww...... forget it........
I should not have to ask, expaine or say ..
Night all..
Lovin U
August 22 Short and sweetOK, so 20 minutes after arriving at the camping spot my mom and step-dad took off for gold panning. Mark and I decided to stay behind and relax just a bit (I did, just get done pulling the camper) and de-stress. They left the boombox on.. Mark is puttering around. Im organizing the table, cooking stuff.. and such. This humming bird flies over to the boombox and hits the yellow OFF button. He/she did indeed turn the music off.... Must not like 70's!
On Sunday night the parents went to bed at 9pm. Those of you close know Mark has been staying up till 3 or 4am. I try to keep him company. So off to the camper we go (fires not permited), Mark gets the heater going. Im organizing for the trip home. We both finish up, sit and look at eachother "What do we do now?" I said chat... "What about?" Well, what do you think about one day we replace this, Avacado green wall paper? it looks horrid!? Long story short we spent 3 hours using plyers, tweezers and exacto knifes...Removing wall paper while camping ....... Fun spontainious memory for us!
Shania loves school. while eating at the table with the kids she said "Mom, this was the best idea ever!" The next day she asked "Mom, when it is cheese pizza day at school, can you make my lunch at home?" LOL Guess cheese pizza still taste like carboard!
Mark has Chemo for 5 days next week, Shania has school, boh drop off times are the same.... sigh..... either mark is late or shania is...
August 20 Shania's first day of school.pic's only... I'm just really tired. ........ and I know I still owe you all a camping story.... I will get to it.
One thing: was UNBELIVEABLE..
another thing: a truly fun memory I will treasure.
Yep.... tomorrow or the next...
Another Goal met, Thank you Mark..... for hanging in there.....
July 28 Don't sweat the small stuffI would have to say.. the small stuff to one family is WAY different to another's family perspective "of the small stuff" ......
For instance.. the medical bill's we have (horrid huge, no I mean HORRID huge....... ) is small stuff to us.. It' will be dealt in one way or another...in time..
Our big stuff. Is creating family memories. and pictures of events I can remind Shania of.... in our future...
Marks only chance to watch and enjoy Shanias reactions and spend family time, is "now"......... Its about the biggest thing he lives for, this is not small stuff for Mark, Shania and I. This is why he has suffered threw chemo for 18 months.
Her daddy will not have another chance to see her experience the joy, excitement, the awe of a fair in his childs eyes. He is terminal, his time will be ending this year. Pictures of us as a family enjoying normal family fun activites, that I can show to her and tell the story of when we went here.....This oppertunity, will not happen next year. This is huge.. for him. This is the small stuff to most, as you will have next year, it's not an issue to miss this this one time.
Next year Shania and I will be saying "Wish Daddy could have been here". I do not wish to offend.. but the small to one is the world
and the last to another. Please do not take offence. I wish to only inform you of the way we look at every thing we do. Even shopping trips at Walmart is . a good day...
20 years of family rift....... Gone in 3 hours visit time.
Im so... I just dont know what to say....... Hell has frozen over and I'm glad it happened in my life time.
Our whole family (both sides) have been carrying this stone on our backs. It is over.
The Kid's, caught in the middle (includes myself, cousins) are sitting in my home.. While the rest of the family, is in another home. working things out..
"the kids" speculating, hoping, things can be worked out. Then we let heavy hearts speak.....this is bad, this will not work, then back to, It might, lets wait and see.
"we, dont hear yelling" thats good, or thats bad. Sigh... a Very long 30 minutes
Tears of joy and relief from eveyone, as they come back into my house. When it had been resolved.
Provided. I can get things in order and ready in 3 weeks time ( a registered camper (need Laceys help) and tires).. .. The only camping trip this summer will include the long lost family (also Mark's family, if that can be arrainged..). It' will be Marks last......
The rift: It not only went from bad to good but to .. HUGE family time to come ..... Im speechles and that does not happen but once every ten years or soo.. Mark and Shania will finally get to know them and the rest of of us can "Remember when"?
My gratitude .... My childs gratitude (in Time) belongs to 3 Ladies.. One cousin -in-law for making this all possible and 2 moms-sisters.. laying issues to rest.. Time will tell...Unfortunatily. some of us have more time.........
Angie. GIRLFRIEND from 25 yeras ago. you have tried 2 times in two days to chat with me on the phone to catch up... Yesterday was chemo and other Dr. appts. Today patching up family. I soo hope when you try tomorrow. I can be there for more then a 5 minute call...... Don't give up..
and yeah. to the new, old, lost, refound people, whom are taking a look see at this post. I dont care how the spelling, structure or format comes out... On my blogs. I care to spend time in convo with my daughter and husband then time for spell check. and yeah. it's just not me.....
HUGS to everyone that needs one tonight and those whom want one. and one special hug to "Julie" her father was just diagnosed with cancer in 5 different organs.. Time is not on yourside. honey. Give him all the love and attention you can. Quaility time is what cancer patients are after.
July 27 I love the new Dr....Mark will not..
After 4 week's behind in chem and a lot of effort Mark is in Chemo today.. His new schedule is 5 days a week, 3 hours a day... 3 weeks off.. He weight in at 110lbs..
Mark wanted to start next Monday the Dr. said "you need to start this week" The cancer in your chest is big....Mark said it's tuesday already.. I thought you wanted 5 days a week. I remminded mark that it is Monday. Mark said well I have a Dr's appt to Get a morphine shot in 30 minutes... for my headache with Dr. Buss
Dr. Shi said "let's try demroil" (*sp) and get chemo started, I'll be back in 2 minutes..
Nadine call and cancel his appt.... Talk to the nurse and set appts everyday this week.. umm. yes sir.!!!! lovin you!
... First Dr. that did not let Mark run the show.. Mark is comming up on his 18th month and the scans show the cancer knows it too.. It is bigger then last month and Mark walks around with his hand on his chest.. the more it grows, the more it hurts.
Today Shania told me.. I will take out my gum, break it in half and and give you some to chew... ummm yeah... that's alright honey... Thank you tho.. I will be eating a tomato in just a few minutes. ewww eww ewww LOL.. but willing to share............ sweet eh?
July 24 Whatever........"You can't win," as a catchphrase, originated in the United States and was in use by 1950 (according to Eric Partridge, "A Dictionary of Catch Phrases American and British"). It expresses a sense of futility about hoping to succeed or, generally, to get something--anything--done. The elaboration "You can't win for losing," with its added play on logic, was around in the 1960s. It means that losing keeps you from winning; you can't win because things keep going wrong. People would say it when something unexpected or a bit of bad luck spoiled their plans. As a family, the one goal we have been trying to do is.... "Shania's first's" ...... To create memories and pictures. Last year Mark insisted that I still go with the family plan that we had made to take Shania to the Fair. He was very sick and in the hospital the week before chemo, so his chemo was pushed forward a week, thus missing her first fair. We said thats ok we have next year. Altho Mark is feeling as well as he can, it won't be happing this year either. The truck ate too many greenbacks in July. We both wish we could shlup it off and say next year... So, Vern, Robert and Lady Friend, Leon. Perhaps... "Just" before you all head to Plymouth's county fair.. call me, Mark and I can meet you for a soda and "booth time" :p at Micky D's before or Mark is usally up till 2am.. stop by the house after. If those dont work, we will have to set up seperate meetings someother time. Ironically. This would be the first time he met "My" friends. Aunt Linda, Uncle Larry, Ricky and Tina: Been too many years sense I have seen you all.. You havent even met Shania yet (actually you did not even know I had another brat). I need to move our visit to the next time Tina comes home. Just let us know.... Mark did make it to the Zoo with her, First Christmas at home, first 4th of July at home and with fireworks, we hope to fit a camping trip in with-in 3 weeks. She keeps asking us to go.. If we dont, she will be busy with school. We are Grateful. that it look's like he will make it to her first day of school. Shania starts school on Aug, 19... (so happens to be the day of Mark's 18th month) two Goal's one swoop.. Tell someone tomorrow.. You mean alot to me.... I'm happy we had a chance to meet.. Make it a feel good day! I would say good night sweet dreams. But Mark's bedtime is in 2.5 hours. So back to dish's or FaceBook ? hmm hard choice..... :p
July 17 I want to sayThank you mom for buying all my yearbooks, and a thank you to the AH that sold them all....
Too odd..... found a OLD friend (havent seen in 25 years). Living 7 miles from me. Umm we are a very small county.. Where have I been??
He has a year book for me to scan...... Yeah for HS buddies! July 09 Warmy fuzzy on a busy day...My son invited me to spend his lunch time with him (not the first time) sorry I could not reach you son... Ron (Marks brother,and sis-in-law) Chris... Called me as I was getting in the truck (the truck with 2 new tires, oil change, air filter and wipers) to go give Kris a hug and a kiss and a thank you "But not today either" I have frozen foods in the bed" .. Ron and Chris are 20 minutes away and I cant stay there either. They went to the Hosp to visit Mark.. whom was a sleepy boy.. So they came to our house and had a short visit.. then back to the hosp for a quick visit to Mark again before going home.... Thanks you 3.. it was a busy day.. but a warm fuzzy one.
Kristofer..I will have lunch with you soon. I promise...
Ron Kris.. ment alot to me.. bet it ment more to Mark... thank you...
Mom, Dan... Thanks for taking Shania camping.. I got a few (well more then I expected to) things done... It's appreciated.
Thanks to the two Dads for watching over us.... Get better so you can visit/RIP....Daddy
Dana....catchin' my backside!
Family hug!!
YOU are kidding me....If I did not have a few things to do today... I think I would call in sick.
Got the compressor on this mornings flat (had one yesterday at the hosp, another story)... I should be outta here in 15 for the Hospital and Dr. meeting... When the tire place opens up at 8am, guess whom is first in line.. If I have to step on some toes today, I'm ready... I'll be thereThis is not about Mike but Mark and our kids.... IT JUST fits... and if Mikes kids need it .. It's all about the babies........ I'll be there too.... NEW mostly UNSEEN pics....All about the kids... ours, nephews, niecess... JUST all our... babies......
You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back Where there is love, I'll be there I'll reach out my hand to you, I'll have faith in all you do Just call my name and I'll be there Chorus: And oh - I'll be there to comfort you, Build my world of dreams around you, I'm so glad that I found you I'll be there with a love that's strong I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on - yes I will, yes I will Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter Togetherness, well that's all I'm after Whenever you need me, I'll be there I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love I respect you Just call my name and I'll be there (chorus) If you should ever find someone new, I know he'd better be good to you 'Cos if he doesn't, I'll be there Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there (Just look over your shoulders, honey - ooh) I'll be there, I'll be there, whenever you need me, I'll be there Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there... July 06 Daddy's GirlStanley T. Banks; Father of the Bride
You fathers will understand. You have a little girl. She looks up to you. You're her oracle. You're her hero. And then the day comes when she gets her first permanent wave and goes to her first real party, and from that day on, you're in a constant state of panic.  |
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